What My Heart Want Is

I'm still want to be with you . To be loved with you again ..

Yeah , I did tried . But I can't make it . ;(

I thought I loved him, but he had to break my heart for me to know what true love really is

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19th / November ' 2010 - 19th / July ' 2011

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 8th MONTHS . Tak sangka kan , 8 bulan ady I'm starting messaging with you . On this date (19th) , I'm OFFICIALLY letting you go from my life dear . ;) Setelah 8 bulan . I'm letting you go now . Hehe . And I hope I can make it . Don't worry about me . I'm doin fine with all of this . 19th - That's the start and the end of us . ;)

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Letih Jadi Seorang Manusia

Bukan tak bersyukur menjadi salah satu daripada ciptaanNya . Tapi kadang2 tu I'm feel so tired . Tired of everything . I think I can't bear with it . As a human , I'm so weak . Bila dah berjauhan daripada family macam ni terutamanya , I'm so weak . Tak tahu nak bertahan sampai bila . I'm feel like I want to end up my life just like this . ;( Nak jaga hati orang bukannya senang . Setiap yang kita buat tu , all is pretend . Tak suka lah kalau berlakon2 ni . Tapi nak buat macam mana kan , hati orang kita kena jaga . Tapi yang sedihnya , hati sendiri siapa nak jaga . Siapa nak peduli ? No one lah . Kalau ada pun sehari dua je . Then tak lagi . Manusia . lumrah dah begitu . 

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Saya nak Awak yang dulu Mr.Mardybum

I want you back ! I want you back ! I want you back ! Nak awak pukul 11.30pm message me like before . Rindu sangat kat awak . Rindu sangat nak bergurau dengan awak ! Rindu sangat nak dengar suara awak ! Rindu sangat nak tengok awal LIKE semua status saya ! Rindu sangat nak dengar Handphone saya memainkan lagu Mardybum . Sebab saya tahu awak message saya . Huh ~ Rindu semua tu . ;'( Sakitnya merindu . Nak diluahkan kat siapa ? No one . Takpa lah , biar saja saya seorang saja yang tahu and rasa semua tu . Awak dah tak macam dulu lagi dah . Now , awak just cari saya bila awak rasa awak betul2 perlukan saya . Awak dah tak rindu saya lagi dah . Awak dah tak sayang saya macam dulu lagi dah . Awak dah menjadi orang lain dah . Saya dah takda dalam hati awak lagi dah . Saya dah tak penting macam dulu lagi dah . Saya dah tak dapat nak CURI hati awak lagi dah . Saya sedih . 

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Tersedar Dari Lamunan ~

Baru semalam saya dapat berfikir dengan logik why all of this time he acted like that . Hurm . Semua cause of that girl . Bukan nak salahkan dia . Memang tak salah pun dia nak berkawan . And memang tak salah pun kalau PEREMPUAN tu nak marah . Sebab , saya interframe kat waktu yang salah . PADAN MUKA . Awak , jangan risaulah . Lepas ni , saya dah tak ganggu hidup DIA dengan awak . Both of you boleh back to normal lah . Sorry selama ni , saya banyak sangat mengganggu hidup awak berdua . I'm apologise . Thanks for everything . For me , cukup sudha . I don't want to bother your life anymore . I'll move on . 

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Let's move . I'm tired .

Now , it's time to forget you . I'm suppose to be not to get through hard time like this . But why must I ? Why can't I just live happily just like before ? Where's the happiness ? Where's the fairness ? Why must everytime I have to get through all of this pain ? Am I such a fool girl ? The girl that always getting flirt with guys ? 

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Suka & Tak Suka

DIA suka :

* Merajuk . Bila dia merajuk bukan sehari , kadang2 sampai 2 hari . Yang hari tu , dekat 2 minggu . Dia shakap DIA NAK LUPAKAN saya . Dulu bila dia merajuk , saya tak jemu nak memujuk dia . Ye lah . Dulu asyik saya je yang merajuk , then orang akan pujuk . Saya mana reti nak memujuk . Dia lah orang pertama yang saya pujuk . Hishh ~ Tapi dalam tak sedar , I'd learned something from him right ? :)

* makan ayam . He's favourite . 

*  Pengsan awal . Since dari 1st I'd messaged with him . Kalau dah over jam 12 , jangan harap nak message elok2 dengan dia . Around jam tu lah dia akan pengsan awal . Heh ! Mula2 agak tak dapat nak terima suasana tu , tapi bila dah lama2 ok lah . I'm fine with it . Kalau tengah2 message tu , dia tak reply lagi . Then , I'm off too . Heh ! 

* BERGAYA . For me lah . Even dia just pakai shirt je . Memang he's look cool . That's why I'm fall for him . ;) The way he dressed up . Cool .. 

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It's all about ME and Mr.Papa

So the true . We must always remember this . No matter how hard our life was , it's happen for the reason . Tuhan sengaja nak berikan cabaran dan dugaan di dalam hidup kita . Takkan dia asyik nak bagikan kesenangan kepada kita , am I right ? 

Sometimes , kita tak boleh nak lari daripada kenyataan yang amat menyakitkan . Kita harus terima setiap kesakitan itu . Kesakitan tu lah yang akan mematangkan kita untuk meneruskan kehidupan di dunia sementara ini . 

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My heart says that I Love You

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No matter how hard I'm trying to avoiding you . I'm still love you . No matter angry am I , I'm still love you . No matter everytime when I'm think about negative things , I'm still love you .

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Although handphone dah rosak , tapi I'm still trying my best to read out all of your messages . Before tidur , that's my routine . Read all of your messages . Our memories will never fade away . Like what I did mentioned before . If we're not apart like what we used to be now . I'll keep your memories with me . Not anywhere , but in my heart . 

Banyak sangat dugaan bila kita betul2 jatuh cinta kat orang kan . Kita sanggup berkorban . Yah . BERKORBAN . Sakit bila pengorbanan tu kite yang tanggung , hanya Tuhan je yang tahu . Memang betul . Kita teman tapi mesra right ? We can't forcing to make it more than a friend . I know that . It's never gonna be happen . I'm trying my best to telling myself it's never gonna be happen . Yes . NEVER . ;( Huh . Bila terkenangkan perkara tu , I'm feel so down . Entahlah . Me also don't know why must I falling so hard with you . Huh . Sakit ar . ;( Unlike this kind of feeling . 

Mr.Mardybum . Papa . Mr.Cupcakes .

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I'll wait patiently until your heart open for me AGAIN .

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OUT !

I WON'T CRY FOR YOU ANYMORE ! I WON'T WASTING MY TEARS FOR THE PERSON WHO DOESN'T DESERVED FOR IT . YOU REALLY MAKE ME FEEL SO DOWN . YOU'VE KILL MY FEELING . CONGRATS !

Before this you'd mentioned that . You try to FORGET ME . You know how hurt I am ? It's hurt so much . It's killing me . Tapi saya pura2 ketawa . Pura2 kata OK . Sedangkan I'M NOT OK ! Now , maybe it's the time for you to forget me . YES ! FORGET THE PERSON NAME MARGARETH ANAK NANGKAI . ERASE her name in your memory . Throw her away from your life . It's better . It'll not only good for your sake , but ot's also good for her . Biar MARGARETH tak berharap kat awak lagi . MENANGIS . Sakit sangat bila orang buat macam tu dengan kita . Sangat sakit . Huh ~ Tak tahan dah . *crying* . Out !
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