It's all about ME and Mr.Papa

So the true . We must always remember this . No matter how hard our life was , it's happen for the reason . Tuhan sengaja nak berikan cabaran dan dugaan di dalam hidup kita . Takkan dia asyik nak bagikan kesenangan kepada kita , am I right ? 

Sometimes , kita tak boleh nak lari daripada kenyataan yang amat menyakitkan . Kita harus terima setiap kesakitan itu . Kesakitan tu lah yang akan mematangkan kita untuk meneruskan kehidupan di dunia sementara ini . 

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My heart says that I Love You

Love Comments

No matter how hard I'm trying to avoiding you . I'm still love you . No matter angry am I , I'm still love you . No matter everytime when I'm think about negative things , I'm still love you .

Love Comments

Although handphone dah rosak , tapi I'm still trying my best to read out all of your messages . Before tidur , that's my routine . Read all of your messages . Our memories will never fade away . Like what I did mentioned before . If we're not apart like what we used to be now . I'll keep your memories with me . Not anywhere , but in my heart . 

Banyak sangat dugaan bila kita betul2 jatuh cinta kat orang kan . Kita sanggup berkorban . Yah . BERKORBAN . Sakit bila pengorbanan tu kite yang tanggung , hanya Tuhan je yang tahu . Memang betul . Kita teman tapi mesra right ? We can't forcing to make it more than a friend . I know that . It's never gonna be happen . I'm trying my best to telling myself it's never gonna be happen . Yes . NEVER . ;( Huh . Bila terkenangkan perkara tu , I'm feel so down . Entahlah . Me also don't know why must I falling so hard with you . Huh . Sakit ar . ;( Unlike this kind of feeling . 

Mr.Mardybum . Papa . Mr.Cupcakes .

Love Comments

Love Comments

I'll wait patiently until your heart open for me AGAIN .

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OUT !

I WON'T CRY FOR YOU ANYMORE ! I WON'T WASTING MY TEARS FOR THE PERSON WHO DOESN'T DESERVED FOR IT . YOU REALLY MAKE ME FEEL SO DOWN . YOU'VE KILL MY FEELING . CONGRATS !

Before this you'd mentioned that . You try to FORGET ME . You know how hurt I am ? It's hurt so much . It's killing me . Tapi saya pura2 ketawa . Pura2 kata OK . Sedangkan I'M NOT OK ! Now , maybe it's the time for you to forget me . YES ! FORGET THE PERSON NAME MARGARETH ANAK NANGKAI . ERASE her name in your memory . Throw her away from your life . It's better . It'll not only good for your sake , but ot's also good for her . Biar MARGARETH tak berharap kat awak lagi . MENANGIS . Sakit sangat bila orang buat macam tu dengan kita . Sangat sakit . Huh ~ Tak tahan dah . *crying* . Out !
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Cerita Margareth Hari Ini ( 6th July 2011 )

1. OBSERVATION 

Today is the 2nd time for my observation by Pn.Rohemah . Nervous tu tak yah ar nak cakap kan . Memang tak pernah habis . Since kelmarin aku asyik tanye kat Pn.Rohemah .. "Cikgu just observe tok SET INDUKSI je kan ? " Hehe ! Even aku ajar 2 masa . Tapi aku asyik tanye bende yang sama . Nasiblah Pn.Rohemah ni jenis yang sabar melayani kerenah aku . Keke ! Overall ok . Pn.Rohemah memang baik . Just sometimes I'm feel so down . I got no confident to teaching today . I don't know why . Maybe because aku tak berjaya menguasai tentang topik yang aku observe tadi tu kot . Today ajar 3 buah kelas . So , kelas 2 Dinamik akan diajar topik yang sama dengan kelas 2 Bijak . Pn.Rohemah observe kelas 2B . Huh , aku try larh nak praktiskan kat kelas 2D . Tapi takde confident tu . Memang down lah tadi .. Huh ! Tapi lepas je habis observation tu , LEGA giler2 gua cakap babe . Thanks to Pn.Rohemah cause memberikan banyak tunjuk ajar and be a sporting mentor to me .. Muahh ! Loph u Pn.Rohemah . ;)

2. HEART

 

It's all about my feeling again . Boring kan ? Haha ! Tapi apa boleyh buat . I just express my feeling here . Okai . Sometimes , bila happy . Aku sangat happy . Bila sedih , aku akan sesedih-sedihnya . TERKILAN pun ada . Ye lah . Benda tu , memang nothing . To someone that I love the most . I really love you . Thousand times I did mention the same thing right . Tak muak . Tak pernah jemu waiting for you . Entahlah . Nak cari orang lain boleyh tak ? Kadang2 bila awak dah layan , I'm feel so happy . Just nak be with you je . 24hrs message sampai kamoo naik rimas . But what can I do . Kalau orang dah tak nak layan . Takkan kita nak terhegeh2 kejar pulak kan . So , kena terima hakikat bahawa . YOU'RE NOT MINE . AND NEVER BE MINE . We are friends . Not more than that . I know you never LOVE me . NEVER . Kalau awak sayang saya . Mesti awak dan saya dah jadi COUPLE now kan ? But ... Until now , it's still the same . Nothing different right ? Shaya just menunggu something yang tak akan berlaku pun . Bukan yang tak pasti . Yang tak akan berlaku . Saya je yang lebih2 . Berangan yang awak dan saya akan menjadi COUPLE . Bodohnya saya .. Yah . I'm very stupid . Maybe awak dah ada orang lain di hati awak . Saya just PARASIT dan PENGGANGGU je .. Maaf , saya terlalu cintakan awak . Huh ! Sedihnya .. Nak menangis .. Can I cry ? Thank You . 

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~ Maaf , Hati saya sudah Tertutup ~

SEAIRA AWIE .. Maaf dude , I can't love you like before . Ratusan kali dah awak tanye . Why do I can't fall for you again . It's because , you're my friend . Hati & cinta saya BUKAN tok awak lagi dah . My heart still belonging to Mr.Mardybum . Walaupun he didn't love me like I do . It's doesn't matter . As long as I know I love him . Seaira , antara kita tak lebih dari seorang kawan dah sekarang ni . Hope you understand . Dulu , mase kapel . Awak tak jaga hati saye betol2 . Now , awak menagih balik . Sori , I'm not interested anymore . -.-' .

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Happy 7th Months Anniversary

Mr.Mardybum . Tak terase dah kan . 1/2 year already since I knew you . Actually , more than that . Just that one was , since I'm start texting with you . I count every single day . Like what I did said before . I don't want to lost any moments with you . :)

Although now , we're not together anymore . But , you're still in my mind and my heart . I'll remember this date . 

Happy 7th Months Anniversary Mr.Papa :)

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CINTA .. Saya TERLUKA :(

CINTA .. Entahlah . Tak tahu nak describe perasaan sekarang ni . SAYA TERLUKA . SAKIT sangat rasa tu . Selalu je cakap , I'll move on . Tapi tak move juge . So hurt . Damn hurt . Sampaikan demam cause of this thing . I don't want to thing too much . But how could I ? Every single day . Every single hours . Every single minutes . What all I can do is .. Thinking of you . Damn ! Why must I to be choose to face all of this thing ? I'm weak . Too weak to face it . ;( 

Wish that I could turn back the time . Where's I didn't knowing you before . It's better that I'm stick single . My heart was not taken by anyone . Just taken by my lovely mom . I can't make thing right as I want to . I'm accidently falling for you . How can I stop that . It's all about my feeling . I can't control it . Just .. It's my biggest mistake for falling for you I think . I should be not bothered your life . Never ever disturbed it . It was my mistake .

I'm pretend like I'm too familiar with what it feels like to hurt . I'm always says that I'm used to all of this thing . But inside my heart , I'm TOTALLY broken into pieces . No one can fix it . NO ONE . 

LOVE , don't ever say "I LOVE YOU" if you're going to leave me . And the most important is . DON'T ever mentioned that word if you're going to LEAVE ME ALONE . That's word is killing me in silence .

But all I can do now is accept the truth . Cause I know the past cannot be changed , forgotten , edited or erased . It can be only accepted . So true . 

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Wondering

Why this gonna be happen huh ? Why must I still hoping for the things that NEVER be mine ? Everyday , every night before I go to sleep . I’ll hug your shirt . Hug my teddy . Cause you always said that you’re my teddy . I hug them and pray . I did pray . I ask from Lord that you’ll be alright . Stay healthy . Wish for you happiness . Wish that you’ll be back as my Papa someday . Yes , I did . I did pray for something that never be happen again . Worthless . I’m so tired now . I’m scare that I can’t wait anymore . If it’s a good news for you , ok . J I think it’s the suit time for letting you go . No one will hurt . I don’t want to hurting you anymore . L I should let you go dear . *crying*

You can ignoring me , but it's killing me in silent . It’s always me who’s care to much right ? Soke , I got reason for that . But you ? Do you ever care ? I don’t think so . Yeah , who am I ? I’m nothing to you . Seems like .. I’m just bertepuk sebelah tangan saja . Soke lah .. What to do , dah nasib macam ni kan . Rindu kat orang yang mungkin tak rindu kat kite . Sayang kat orang yang tak pernah sayang kat kite . Cinta kat orang yang tak pernah cinta kat kite . Dahlah , makin banyak melalut . Makin sedih nanti . Dahlah tengah hujan . Layan pulak lagu sedih … L

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Sebuah Kisah Aku dan Kamoo

Mase Sem 2 lagi , aku dah minat kat Kamoo . Masa tu , tengah bergosip-gosip dengan housemate pasal lelaki paling hensem kat UPSI . Haha ~ Gilakk keja . Then , sorang2 lah bantai citer . Mase tu aku minat kat senior Sarawak cause senior tu jaga masa minggu orientasi tok kolej aku (KAB) . Hensem gak . Haha ~ Then sampai je kat YUK (Roomate) , dia cakap .. "Korang tak tengok lagi mamat sorank ni . Masa dia jaga kolej aku minggu orientasi kolej (KUO) , cair kot aku tengok dia . Aku gerenti kalau korang tengok mesti korang will fall for him ." . Bahaha ! Siot . Aku terus terpengaruh dengan cerita si Yuk tu . Ape lagi . Dah si Yuk bagi full name , aku ngan member2 lain terus je cari siapa mamat tu . Gilakk miang kan ?? Hahaha ~ Memang miang ! Wink2 ..

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Thank You

1. God

Thanks to God cause giving the strength and beautiful life to me . I'm always believe that God always giving the best for me . Even though sometimes I'm feel so down , I know God must have some reasons for that .  God has created my life story , my love story , my happiness . HE IS THE WAY , THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE . HE won't leave me . I know that . NEVER .

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