Thank You

1. God

Thanks to God cause giving the strength and beautiful life to me . I'm always believe that God always giving the best for me . Even though sometimes I'm feel so down , I know God must have some reasons for that .  God has created my life story , my love story , my happiness . HE IS THE WAY , THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE . HE won't leave me . I know that . NEVER .

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Thank You For Hurting Me XD

Thank you so much dear . Thank you . I don't know what else I could say . I'm hurt too much now . Too much . *crying while writing this* .. Huh ~ I try to smile . But I can't . My tears is run so fast . I can't bear with all of this thing . I'm too weak . I'd told so . So weak . It's nothing special anymore . 


Everything seems to be worst . I need to accept the truth now . He's not mine . Not longer mine . I'm get so jealous right now . I'm so sorry . I can't control myself anymore . I gotta go with my own way now . I should let you go . Even though we want to be like before , I think it's doesn't work . It can't be happen . Your heart is belong to her . You're stay in her heart dear . Not longer in mine . I can fill it . Although you've said " Kalau she is my jodoh , we're mean to be together . " Yes she is .    
I think it's the right time for me to move on . If not , I'll gettin so hurt . Sebab , I'm in love with you . Not you heart anymore . I don't want it . I want to fall for your heart . That's the most important . I want to win your heart . I want to steal your heart . That's all . 
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Do I Have Any Reason To Fall In Love With You ?

" Our heart is the greatest cheater in the world . It makes thousands of different excuses to stay in touch with the people we Love "

Do I ? Even though a million times if you ask me the same question , why do I fall for you . My answer will be the same . I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE . And I think I don't need any answer for your question dear . 

My heart for you is never change . It's always the same . I'm the one who's admire you . I'm the one who's seek for your love . I'm the one who's always care for you . I'm the one who's always by your side . I'm the one always LOVING YOU . I'm the one who's desire you . 

Sometimes , I don't think you're really care at all . Because I know , you're not the old you . You're the new person that I'd knew . Do you know how much I wish I could be fall for the person who's really make me fall in love like before ? That's the old you . The old my Mr.Mardybum . The one who's always be my side . The one who's always care for me . The one who's always make me laugh . The one who's always make me smile all the time . The one who's become a poison and a drug who's always makes me addicted to . Honestly , I'm really miss the old you . 

No one understands the silence between my words . No one understands the sadness behind my smile . No one understands the unsaid feelings of mine . They think I am fine but only I know daily I am dying . I want to be happy again . I want to live those moments again . I am sick of wearing a fake smile . I am waiting for the one who can really make me smile . And I know , just and only . Mr.Mardybum is that person . ;'(

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Ikhlas ke Awak Sayang Kat Saya ?

Ouh really ? Are you sincere in loving me ? Please don't play with my heart ok . Baby , you give me too much hope sometimes . And , I'm hoping too much . Seriously . 

Big girl don't cry right ? But I can't . I must cry on . Entahlah . I'm think too much now . Maybe , crying is the best way to express my feeling .  No one knows how I'm feel . No one cares .

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It's So Hard To Forget Someone Who Gave You So Much To Remember

Yeahh .. Aku mengesyokkan diri aku sendiri lah . Semakin hari semakin aku syok sendiri . Hurm . Ada baik and ada buruk . Ye ek ? Tak tahu . That's what I'm think about . Entahlah , aku rasa better I'm keep on silent . That's the best and better way . Macam before ni kan . Tak ganggu hidup DIA . DIA pun tak ganggu gak . 

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Kita bukan aku dan kamu yang dulu lagi dah ... :)

Mencari dan terus mencari . Di mana ? Ke mana ? Menghilang entah ke mana .. Ngee ~ Entahlah apa aku nak tulis nie . Aku ikut rentak hati dan tangan yang rancak menaip . Macam main piano larh pulak kan .. Heh . Al-maklum lah kan . Nak belajar main piano pulak lepas ni . Heh ~ Konon .. :)

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Little things mean a lot

True . A little things mean a lot . It's happen to anyone of us . Everyone are feel the same thing right ? No matter what had happened to us . It's really bring a lot of changes . Even though it's a small matter , but it's mean a lot . 

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Aishiteru Mardybum

Heh ~ Entah kenape mood aku leh happy plak arinie . Happy sangat2 . Salunya , before tidur pasti aku akan bertemankan air mata . But tonight , I'm feel so happy . Don't know why . Tak kira aku tengah happy ke . Tengah bersedih ke . Yang pasti . HE's always in my mind . ;)

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Memory Remains II

* .. hehe..2 laa..1st tyme jmpe, dnga sore ..
* ..huhu..yep..dnga sore pon, da jdik tndu kan ..
* .. hehe..ye eh...sy pon..awk, malunye..sy kan gune beg awk, td lalu sblh mmber awk..aiyaakk..
* huhu . hate sewing ..
* ..hehe..de plak no hdu..mo kis la . lalala ~
* Huhu ..xmoo tdo dah..mish u la ..
* Yeke..emm, sy xwtpe..mkn cupcke..hehe ..
* ..huhu..emm,sy da mam 10bjik..knyg..hehe..
* ..xmo..huu ~,,missing sum1..
* huhu~ ..bling laa..emm..ngah text la neh..die jaohh ..
* huhu..xkne2..week..emm,jaoh..kat miri sne wak..
* huhu..yelah..t tkot xdpt jmpe die ..
* ..yeppp..huhu..adei..tringat die je neyh..how ?..
* ..huk3 ..nseb jgk sy bg no fon..awk bkn nk mntk...
* ..xponn..hehe..emm,xdela..teddy tggl tm..yg pluk 2 kt Miri..
* hehe...emm..wak,cni jap..nk bisik kt tlinge awk..
* ..hahahha ..muuahhhh...sje, nk kis pp awk . lalaa ~
* ...hehe..awk kne tpuu..merah muke 2...
* ..hehe..tp sy leh imgne mke awk merah,n mesti ngah senyum2 ..
* hahhaa ..of cos i can...mmuahh..see..
*..haha . yess ..i got it ..
* ..hak3...so i can kiss u many times la kn ..
* hehe..okes, t sy g sane awk mst bwk sy jejalan..
*..erkk...ye2..jln..awk 2 je mrangkak ..haha ~
* hohoho..xmo2..tgok awk je .lalalala ~
* ... my mardybum (31/11/2010 :: 2253)


*nanti2 saya update lagi ok . Ngantok . Thus , tak tahan nak update . Menangis tak henti2 . ! Too many memories about me and HIM . Huh ! Dugaan betul lah . Mish him sow sudden . ~
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Takdir Tuhan , Tak Siapa Yang Mampu Mengubahnya

Baik . Entry kali ni . "Takdir Tuhan Tak Siapa Yang Mampu Mengubahnya" . That's right . Everything had happened , there must be a reason . Aku salu gak percaya . Yah , yang berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya .

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